and i am not so…
February 12, 2012 § Leave a comment
and i am not so great at reading people
for i have experienced that many will hold back saying or doing things as they care too much about what the other thinks
but i know some things
like how a real kiss feels
and i have currently been on suspension in concluding one
and i was told that it didn’t count, and i wasn’t on the look out for scores, but the what was delivered as a message through his lips and his hands, i couldn’t imagine there is nothing implied in it
i am just now sad that with every day that passes, as i look forward to what i will do in the upcoming hours- a sad and a bad habit of mine- i am more and more aware of the time that passes between me and him,
and there is no fixing it, anything but his doing, and i will remain in that limbo of the unknown, the unexplained mystery that is this man’s behavior.
i trust it so much because i know so much of him isn’t unkind or undecided, but perhaps he is more undecided than i’ll ever be.
oh how easy i can convince myself of belonging to something when evidence points to the contrary.